Friday, September 17, 2010

Messy Day

Okay, I just did something "very nice" to my crisis management paper today~
I couldn't finish it in time and I bet the lecturer would love me because I exchanged the precious 40 marks with "crab" (crapzzz la) for him to enjoy..
After the exam, it seems like everybody agree that the time should be 2.5 hours instead of only 2 hours..
But it's over, the only thing I can do is to pray that the "crab" tastes great..
Now I should focus on the paper tomorrow-- Multimedia Tools for Advertising..
This subject is making my head explode and some more I am having it TOMORROW!!!
Luckily it's in afternoon, hahaha...


I didn't get to sleep last night..
I was tired but I just couldn't fall asleep..
I turned on the bed for one hour and I gave up..
So, I am extremely tired after my exam.. (you know how that feels like releasing a stretched rubber band)
I went back apartment (wendy is still sleeping) and slept..
Then, I woke up by a phone call..
When I tried to sleep again after the call, I thought of the dream I had before I was woke by the ringtone..
Oh my! It's so ridiculous and funny.. But I find it logic in the dream, why? XD
I laughed alone in my room like a mad person and the next thing I know is-- I am too excited to fall asleep..
I am actually tired and sleepy but I just couldn't get myself back on dreamland..
That's why I am updating my blog here.. =="

Tomorrow shall be a better day~ <3
Jia you study!!




~Lots Of Love~

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

This is not omelette, it's "kok kok egg"..

My aunt went out for some business, so I have no lunch today..
Grandma suggested to fry the left-over rice but I don't feel like eating fried rice..
Then she said, "I am okay with anything, just warm the rice and eat with an egg will be okay for me too.."
So I said "Mama, let's eat like this then, I want 'kok kok dan'.." ^^

I remembered when I was young, I loved to eat my grandma's "kok kok egg" a.k.a. omelette..
Why is it called "kok kok egg"?
It is actually from the sound of spoon hitting the plastic bowl when we beat the egg..
We always use plastic bowl last time, maybe it is safer for kids like me who tried to help out in the kitchen.. XD
Since then, the special name for my home-cooked omelette-- "Kok Kok Dan" remains until now..
My younger sisters were also "taught" to call the omelette as "kok kok dan".. (good teacher right?)

It was the most delicious food in the world for me that time..
I even "introduced" this world's best food to my tutor last time.. (i think my grandma was kinda embarrassed that time.. lolz..)
It is probably a normal omelette for most of the people, but it is just so different for me..
I believe that I will never ever get the same taste from any places of this world..
It's the taste of my grandma's love and care..
It has never changed until today..
 
I do not know about you, but I believe that there must be some food, or something that will give you the same feeling like how this "kok kok dan" gave me..
It might be 'nothing' for others, but it is surely 'something' for you..
That's the taste..幸福的滋味~<3


dedicated to my grandma

~Lots Of Love~

Friday, September 3, 2010

发恶梦

我又开始发恶梦了。。
虽然醒后想不起到底梦过什么,只知道两次都被吓醒。。
两次都有眼泪的出现。。

考试要到了,我发恶梦一点也不出奇。。
每次考试,当我要自己开始温习时,总是无形中给自己太多的压力。。
要做得很好,这样才不会丢脸,不会让家人失望,要记得自己身上背的责任。。
结果,到最后根本不敢开始温习,不停地逃避。。
然后再懊恼,讨厌自己为什么不能好好读书。。

是不是很笨?

昨晚睡不着,躺在床上想了好多,想到连恶梦都发了。。
现在唯一能做的就是不让自己懊恼吧,先开始读书,什么都不想。。
加油啊!只有你自己可以帮到自己了!!

~Lots Of Love~

Thursday, August 26, 2010

2 months

 Update my blog after 2 months time, is it still considered an "update"? XD
This semester's assignments are way too heavy for me to have time blogging..
Yea, I know it's my time management problem..

By the way, I learned a lot.. From the people around me, from myself..
A lot of things happened during this 13 weeks, for example, I found out that I was not the only one that has the same perception towards something..
I am those who easily see, or maybe I should say "sense" intentions and behavior behind something..
But I will not tell anybody about it because I think that it is not necessary. Since the others think that  it is good, then why should I spoil their happiness?
Until the day when others get really annoyed with the things, until the day they started to complain about it with me, only I will tell them that actually I knew about it since long time ago.

I do not think that it is a good thing.

Because all these that I see are the negative sides, not the positive ones.
I should learn to appreciate the good things in life instead of looking at the bad sides and get upset with it and affect my life.
It's not worth it.
Love like how He loves me.
This is my new lesson.

~Lots Of Love~

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Tae Yang (Big Bang) 1st Solo Album "Solar" Teaser-- I Need A Girl

It's just HAWT HAWT HAWT!!!!
*nose bleed*
The new album will be officially released tomorrow, 1st June 2010...
Looking forward for it..
By the way.. Please check this out.. (or u gonna regret it.. *winks* =P) 





~Lots Of Love~

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

生活,学习,爱。。

写这些,还是觉得中文比较贴近。。^^

最近的生活好像被牵着走,自己喜欢什么,想要什么都忘记了。
感觉像发了一场梦,梦醒后有那种睡不好的疲惫,还有不想面对现实的恐惧。
觉得自己好没用,好像什么都提不起劲,做不来,想逃离,想旅行。。

在这段时间学习了很多,看清了很多人和物,也看清了自己。
写张清单吧。。最近学习了的事情。。
  1. 该放手的东西就不应该坚持,因为这样会把更有价值的东西放在一边。
  2. 在你需要时对你好的人要好好珍惜,不管是真心还是背后有企图,至少他在那一刻是个“好人”。
  3. 累了就休息。休息是为了更长远的路。
  4. 发高烧时喝100plus真的会好!!^^
  5. 很多事情,只有自己能帮到自己。
  6. 不要随便让你的眼泪流下,尤其是在别人面前,没有人会可怜你。
  7. 别以为你付出了很多就会得回很多,这个世界上的人只看见他们想看见的事情,想有回报都是自己奖励自己比较实际。
  8. 长头发+矮矮+娃娃音+纯真可爱(不管是装还是真的)+看起来软弱的女生最受喜欢。以上条件我没有一项符合,所以自己喜欢自己就好。
  9. 觉得被冷落时就想“有一天你们会后悔的”,然后再厚脸皮地参入大家。
  10. 时常对自己说,如果那么小的挑战都不能应付,要怎么“有一天你们会后悔的”?
  11. 我不是所谓的美女,但我也不是没有脸的怪物。
  12. 这个世界很现实,如果你说你知道,再一次认识这个世界,你会觉得它越来越现实。
  13. 一切过去,最想回家见奶奶。
好了,牢骚发完了。。
现在是要努力的时候,还有太多的事情需要做。。
加油加油加油!!

Friday, June 18, 2010

最后一部“电影”。。

忙碌了那么久,身体终于抗议了。。
好像很久没有发烧感冒的感觉了。。
可是现在不是生病的时候啊!!再过两天就演奏会了,还有一份超级难做(对我来说)的assignment星期一早上要交。。再加上CWW。。
我可真的没时间生病。。T。T

他们说生病的人不止身体,心灵上也是脆弱的。。
那如果在这时候再被人插一刀呢?
会是怎么样?

这已经不是第一次了。。
当我的技术不被肯定时,我可以接受,因为我也知道本身并不是什么值得重视的角色。。
一直以来都这样觉得,出现的原因只因为填补空缺的位置,永远都只是“临时演员”。。
这一切,我都可以接受。。
可是当我的努力不被肯定时,我真的不能接受。。
也许某些人觉得我不够努力,可是我的确有努力过。。
当我听到那句话时,我的感觉就像把一百个一天存一枚的一角钱倒进海里。。
虽然并不值钱,但也是努力了一百天的成果。。
我不能说什么,这个就是现实。。

亲爱的“导演”,
如果你是不需要我的话,为什么不要在开始就跟我说呢?
“临时演员”,也可以是抱着希望和期待的人。。
自从认识你以来,我的希望和期待,已经被抹杀不懂多少次了。。
在你眼里,我真的是那么没有价值吗?
当然,你有很多“专业演员”,甚至“临时演员”,在你眼里我的存在是多余的。。
那我岂不是笨死了?早知道我在一开始就该和你说我本来就想放弃。。
那样就不会努力坚持到现在得到你那么“体贴”的对待了。。

这会是我最后一次。。
最后一次,被你赶也不肯走的在你的“电影”里出现。。
哪怕我会被你讨厌,被别人说厚脸皮。。
已经坚持到现在,你叫我放弃我真的不甘愿。。
那一百个一角钱,不能让你倒进海里。。
就这最后一次,我和你的“电影”。。
不会再有下一部。。
我和你的友情。。我想你做决定。。

虽然会痛,还是要谢谢你。。


~Lots Of Love~

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Super Junior -- 미인아 [BONAMANA] MV

There is no need to say much about how cool is that..
JUST WATCH~~


ddanddaranddan ddanddaranddan ddanddaranddan ddadaddarabba
ddanddaranddan ddanddaranddan ddanddaranddan ddadaddarabba
neon algga malgga algga malgga neomu yebbeun miina
nal michyeotdago malhaedo nan niga johda miina
nuga jeonhaejwo My baby to my baby naega yeogi itdago malya
gidarinda malya (Baby, you turn it up now)
neon gatabuta gatabuta mal jomhaera miina
ni maeumeul gajyeotdamyeon geunyang naneun salmui Winner
i sesangui ichiran ichiran yonggi itneun jareul ddara
na gateun nom malya
yetmale Say yeol beon jjikeumyeon neomeoganda eusseuk eusseuk eusseuk
geunyeoneun gangjeok ggeuddeokeobda bbijjuk bbijjuk bbijjuk
nan eoddeokhalgga eoddeokhalgga geunyeomani nae gwansimin geol geol geol
Bounce to you Bounce to you nae gaseumeun neol
hyanghae jabhil sudo eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol
Break it down to you down to you nae gaseumi neo
neol gatji mothandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)
bolgga malgga bolgga malgga bolgga malgga na gateun namja
bonchemanche bonchemanche bonchemanche dolaseo bwado
bogobwado bogobwado bogobwado na bakke eobda
bonamana bonamana bonamana (Baby you turn it up now)
mwol salgga salgga salgga salgga neoreul wihan seonmul
Oh~ michigetda saenggakman haedo johahal ni moseub
Listen girl! johahae Baby girl! saranghae
namani neoreul wihan namja deuleojwo bwa neoreul hyanghan gobaek
nae mamui say aeman taeuji malgo jebal ggeudeok ggeudeok ggeudeok
i noryeok jeongdomyeon narado guhae giteuk giteuk giteuk
nan eoddeokharago eoddeokharago geunyeomani nae jeonbuin geol geol geol
Bounce to you Bounce to you nae gaseumeun neol
hyanghae jabhil sudo eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol
Break it down to you down to you nae gaseumi neo
neol gatji mothandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)
bolgga malgga bolgga malgga bolgga malgga na gateun namja
bonchemanche bonchemanche bonchemanche dolaseo bwado
bogobwado bogobwado bogobwado na bakke eobda
bonamana bonamana bonamana na bakke eobda
nan deudyeo michilgeoya pokbalhae beoril geoya
deo motchamgesseo geunyeomanui milgo danggigi
oh jinjja michilgeoya nuga jom malryeobwabwa
ireohge himdeul georan geol nuga malhaesseoyaji
(It’s) True true nae gamjeongeun gal gosi eobseo
nege matchwo beoringeol neon jal aljani
How to keep loving you? naega jinjja nege jalhalge
idaero nal sseokhyeo dujima
gidarinda miina Hope you’ll step to me, step to me
saranghanda miina Bring it, sign to me, sign to me.
Hahahaha Hahahahaha
geunyeoga imi nal barabol junbiga dwae isseotnabwa
Bounce to you Bounce to you nae gaseumeun neol
hyanghae jabhil sudo eobseul mankeum ddwigo itneungeol
Break it down to you down to you nae gaseumi neo
neol gatji mothandamyeon meomchul georanda (nal barabwara)
bolgga malgga bolgga malgga bolgga malgga na gateun namja
bonchemanche bonchemanche bonchemanche dolaseo bwado
bogobwado bogobwado bogobwado na bakke eobda
bonamana bonamana bonamana na bakke eobda
//
딴따란딴, 딴따란딴, 딴따란딴, 따다따라빠
딴따란딴, 딴따란딴, 딴따란딴, 따다따라빠
넌 알까말까 알까말까 너무 예쁜 미인아
날 미쳤다고 말해도 난 니가 좋다 미인아
누가 전해줘 My baby, to my baby 내가 여기 있다고 말야
기다린다 말야 (Baby, you turn it up now)
넌, 가타부타, 가타부타 말 좀 해라 미인아
니 마음을 가졌다면 그냥 나는 삶의 Winner.
이 세상의 이치란, 이치란, 용기 있는 자를 따라
나 같은 놈 말야.
옛말에 Say, 열 번 찍으면 넘어간다. 으쓱, 으쓱, 으쓱
그녀는 강적. 끄떡없다. 삐쭉, 삐쭉, 삐쭉
난 어떡할까 어떡할까 그녀만이 내 관심인 걸, 걸, 걸.
Bounce to you, Bounce to you 내 가슴은 널
향해 잡힐 수도 없을 만큼 뛰고 있는걸
Break it Down to you, Down to you 내 가슴이 너
널 갖지 못한다면 멈출 거란다 (날 바라봐라)
볼까말까, 볼까말까, 볼까말까 나 같은 남자
본체만체, 본체만체, 본체만체 돌아서 봐도
보고봐도, 보고봐도, 보고봐도 나 밖에 없다
보나마나, 보나마나, 보나마나 (Baby, you turn it up now)
뭘 살까, 살까, 살까, 살까 너를 위한 선물
오, 미치겠다. 생각만 해도 좋아할 니 모습
Listen girl! 좋아해. Baby girl! 사랑해.
나만이 너를 위한 남자. 들어줘 봐 너를 향한 고백.
내 맘의 say, 애만 태우지 말고 제발 끄덕, 끄덕, 끄덕
이 노력 정도면 나라도 구해 기특, 기특, 기특
난 어떡하라고, 어떡하라고 그녀만이 내 전부인 걸, 걸, 걸
Bounce to you, Bounce to you 내 가슴은 널
향해 잡힐 수도 없을 만큼 뛰고 있는걸
Break it Down to you, Down to you 내 가슴이 너
널 갖지 못한다면 멈출 거란다 (날 바라봐라)
볼까말까, 볼까말까, 볼까말까 나 같은 남자
본체만체, 본체만체, 본체만체 돌아서 봐도
보고봐도, 보고봐도, 보고봐도 나 밖에 없다
보나마나, 보나마나, 보나마나 나 밖에 없다.
난 드뎌 미칠거야. 폭발해 버릴 거야
더 못 참겠어 그녀만의 밀고 당기기
오 진짜 미칠거야. 누가 좀 말려봐 봐
이렇게 힘들 거란 걸 누가 말했어야지
(It’s) True, true 내 감정은 갈 곳이 없어
네게 맞춰 버린걸 넌 잘 알잖니
How to keep loving you? 내가 진짜 네게 잘할게
이대로 날 썩혀 두지마
기다린다. 미인아! Hope you’ll step to me, step to me.
사랑한다. 미인아! Bring it, sign to me, sign to me.
하하하하 하하하하하
그녀가 이미 날 바라볼 준비가 돼 있었나 봐
Bounce to you, Bounce to you 내 가슴은 널
향해 잡힐 수도 없을 만큼 뛰고 있는걸
Break it Down to you, Down to you 내 가슴이 너
널 갖지 못한다면 멈출 거란다 (날 바라봐라)
볼까말까, 볼까말까, 볼까말까 나 같은 남자
본체만체, 본체만체, 본체만체 돌아서 봐도
보고봐도, 보고봐도, 보고봐도 나 밖에 없다
보나마나, 보나마나, 보나마나 나 밖에 없다
//
ddanddaranddan ddanddaranddan ddadaddarabba
ddanddaranddan ddanddaranddan ddadaddarabba
Do you know or not, know or notthat you’re very pretty, beautiful girl
Even if you call me crazy I still like you, beautiful girl
Someone tell this to my baby, to my baby that I’m here,
that I’m waiting (Baby, you turn it up now)
You’re neither yes nor no, yes nor no; say something, beautiful girl
If I had your heart, I’d just be the winner of life
This world’s logic, logic is to follow, guys who are brave,
Guys like me
Old sayings say that picking ten times Is going overboard, shrug, shrug, shrug
That girl is a powerful enemy, She’s unmoveable, pout, pout, pout
What will I do, what will I do? That girl is my only interest
Bounce to you, bounce to you, my heart is beating so fast for you
to the point it can’t be caught; Attracted to you and is beating so fast that I can’t get you
Break it down to you, down to you, if my heart
Can’t get you it’s gonna stop (Look at me)
Will you look or not look or not look or not at a guy like me
You neglect, neglect, neglect me even if you turn around
Even if you look and look, look and look, look and look, there’s no one else but me
Whether you look or not, look or not, look or not (Baby, you turn it up now)
What should I buy, buy, buy, buy as a present for you
Oh, I’m going to go crazy from your image That I’ll like even just thinking about it
Listen girl, I like you, baby girl, I love you
I’m the only guy for you
Please listen to the confession I have for you
My heart says to stop fussing and please nod, nod, nod
If it takes this much effort, I could save the world and be admirable, admirable, admirable
What do you want me to do, what do you want me to do That girl is my everything
Bounce to you, bounce to you, my heart is beating so fast for you
to the point it can’t be caught; Attracted to you and is beating so fast that I can’t get you
Break it down to you, down to you, if my heart
Can’t get you it’s gonna stop (Look at me)
Will you look or not look or not look or not at a guy like me
You neglect, neglect, neglect me even if you turn around
Even if you look and look, look and look, look and look, there’s no one else but me
Whether you look or not, look or not, look or not,there’s no one else but me
I’m finally gonna go crazy,
I’m gonna explode.
I can’t take it anymore, her pushing and pulling .
Oh, I’m really gonna to go crazy
someone put an end to this
Someone should have told me that it would be this hard
It’s true, true that my feelings don’t have a place to go
You know that I adjusted myself to fit you
How to keep loving you?
I’ll really be good to you. Don’t let me rot just like this
I’ll wait, beautiful girl!
Hope you’ll step to me, step to me
I love you, beautiful girl!
Bring it, sign to me, sign to me
Hahahaha, hahahahaha ,
It seems that she must have already, Been preparing to look at me
Bounce to you, bounce to you, my heart is beating so fast for you
to the point it can’t be caught; Attracted to you and is beating so fast that I can’t get you
Break it down to you, down to you, if my heart
Can’t get you it’s gonna stop (Look at me)
Will you look or not look or not look or not at a guy like me
You neglect, neglect, neglect me even if you turn around
Even if you look and look, look and look, look and look, there’s no one else but me
Whether you look or not, look or not, look or not,there’s no one else but me
Translations Credits: kimchi hana & CHARM* @ Soompi

Sunday, May 9, 2010

♥ Happy Mama's Day ♥

It's Mother's Day..
How do you celebrate with your Mommy? Bringing her out for a meal? Or cooking her a meal? Giving her a special present? A kiss perhaps?
If you are with your mommy right now, APPRECIATE it..
Because I'm away from my hometown, facing exams..
So I was not able to go back and celebrate with my grandma..

 my pretty grandma~~

I really wish that I'm by her side now..
She has just went through a surgery on 27th of April..
It was a success but she is still in pain..
I know that she must be missing me (bukan saya syok sendiri, nenek sayangkan Kuanie tau?)..
And I am missing her too..
I think this is the first time not being with her during Mother's Day..
I wish that she will recover fast and continue to enjoy a normal life without pain..
Happy Mother's Day dearest Grandma..
I love you very much~~ ♥

I once again wanna say..
APPRECIATE it if you are with your mom..
And do something memorable for her..
If you feel lazy for it..
Think..
Did your mom ever grow lazy for caring for you?
Did your mom ever said rejected you when you are just a piece of failure?
Did she give up on you even though it is tough and suffering during the 10 months of pregnancy?
Think of all these, and how much time more can you spend with her..
Maybe you would say, "my mom is young, I still have a lot of time.."
Then it turns out that you spend your time on working, dating, marriage, living your own life..
Until the day you felt that "mom is old", you will realise how much time you have wasted..
So APPRECIATE it now, right now..


~Lots Of Love~

Saturday, May 8, 2010

我想变成机器人

最近的考试令我觉得自己越来越没用了。。
怎么那么容易累,那么容易被影响,这么容易读不进脑呢?
突然间想变成一个机器人。。
像Terminator一样,专心地完成任务。。


我想。。
如果我是机器人,我的身体不是肉体。。
不锈钢代替我的骨,电线是我的血管,皮肤是artificial的。。

如果我是机器人, 我的脑里面会有一个hard disc。。
读书时就不怕会记不完或者在考试时忘记读了什么。。

如果我是机器人,我的身体就是用rechargable battery操作的 (可以一边充电一边工作)。。
这样我就不用觉得累和困,有更多时间完成任务。。

如果我是机器人,我的眼睛一定是一个scanner。。
只要scan过笔记和课本,就可以过目不忘。。

如果我是机器人,我的手指其实是pendrives。。
考试前把所有的lecture notes存进身体里,作答时一点都不会错。。

如果我是机器人,我的口只是用来说话,不用吃东西。。
可以保持苗条的身材,不像现在一边读书一边吃零食,越变越胖。。

如果我是机器人,我是没有心的。。
这样我就不会因为心情而读不了书,或者因为周围的引诱而分心。。

如果我是机器人,我的生活将会按部就班的进行。。
没有什么事情是可以带来惊喜,或者是惊吓的。。

如果我是机器人,我唱歌的声音将会是零缺陷的。。
和朋友去唱卡拉OK也不怕唱得声音沙哑,可以大喊大叫!!

可是再想想。。
如果我被virus侵犯的话呢?像编号89757。。
会怎么样?爱上人类怎么办。。
其实变成机器人,好不好?
我觉得还是想想就好。。呵呵。。


~Lots Of Love~

Friday, May 7, 2010

Super Junior The Forth Album 미인아 [BONAMANA] MV Teaser

YES!! They are back with their forth album!!
This new album gave me a feeling of cool and sexy..
A totally different feeling with Super Junior previous album "Sorry Sorry" which has became one of the most significant Korean pop songs..
Check out this teaser.. I guarantee that you will be craving to see the full MV..




Cool.. (OMG OMG OMG!! My Leeteuk oppa got abs~~)
There are only 10 of the Super Junior members involved in this new album..
Which is kinda sad for me, and all the ELFs..
Kangin has went for his military service, Kibum is busy with his movies AGAIN..
And Hankyung.. I really wish that he is there.. But he is not.. *sigh*
Anyway.. I'll still support and love them..
Super Junior Hwaiting!! 아자아자!!


 ~Lots Of Love~

My Lavender Dream ♥

Just made a "childish" promise to myself..
I must go to lavender farm once in my lifetime..
As you know, we don't have any lavender farm in Malaysia (cause of the weather, humidity and stuff.. T.T)
So I definitely need to go places like Japan or Europe in order to fulfill my dream, sounds serious huh? Lolz..

About lavender...
I do not know why am I in love with it so much..
Maybe it's because I like purple.. XP
Lavender..
For me, it symbolizes beauty, love, sweetness, peace.......
I would wish to get a bouquet of lavender during valentine's day instead of roses..
Imagine that I have a house just beside a lavender farm..
The house is painted in white color, with a bell hanging down the roof of balcony..
Every time I open the door, I'll see a beautiful piece of purple in front of me, and smell the sweet scent..
I'll have lavender tea and some biscuits for my tea time, sitting beside the window, reading a novel.............
Everything is just beautiful~~~  ♥


imagine this is what u see every time you open your door..

Okay okay!!
I'm back to reality now..
Gonna prepare for my sociology exam on Saturday..
Wish myself all the best!!
Just wanna say.. Kuanie loves lavender...


~Lots Of Love~

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Pain pain!

I'm hungry but I didn't eat anything after forcing a piece of Gardenia chocolate bread into my tummy this morning before exam. (I think my aunt would scold me if she sees this)
When I thought of cooking myself a nice full plate of pasta, 
My BBF, Daniel asked me for dinner later. 
What time? 4.37pm.. Sigh.. Should I eat or not eat?
Fine I'll just wait since we are going to Gold Label.. ^^
I want something chocolaty to heal my pain.
Physical and mental pain..........
From what I've been through recently..
Exams, friends, self (which hurts the most)..
But guess what??
It's raining now. Will I be able to go and have chocolaty stuff?


p.s.: having pengajian malaysia paper tomorrow, havn't even touch the notes, and my malay sucks. XD

Monday, May 3, 2010

擦肩而过

“我对你来说是什么?” 她问。
等了一会儿,他回复了,“朋友啊!呵呵。。=)”
心沉了一下,原来一直都只是朋友,是自己想太多了。
突然觉得不知道该怎么回复,心和脑突然地闹翻。
问他只是朋友吗?不行,他都说朋友就是朋友。。
打了一行,删除,再打,还是不对。。
什么?!连好朋友都不是?还亏我一直当你是兄弟。” 这样发了过去。
“哈哈,对哦!不好意思啦,我在忙。”
“哦,那我打扰你了吗?”
“没有,别担心!^^”
开始胡思乱想,他是在和他说的那个女生谈天吧?
他说过,他有喜欢的女生,但是不敢表白,真是猪头!!
他从来不透露那女生是谁,只说她也认识的。
她不停的注意他身边的女生,却觉得他对她最好了。
她想,如果我猜说他喜欢的女生是我,我看一定被他笑自恋狂。
自己喜欢他,也一直提不起勇气说,就这样搁在一边的感觉。
“在干吗?怎么不回复了?真的没有打扰!”
“有没有想过跟你说的那个女生表白?”
“为什么那么想我表白?”
“因为想知道她是谁,哈哈!XD”
“我不表白是因为你。。。”
什么??!!她的心好像突然静止了。。
“我?”
“嗯。。。我有了女友就没时间管你。。哈哈哈!”
原来。。。真的是自己想太多了。。
“好烂的理由哦!明明就是自己没勇气!”
“呵呵。。”

她问他她对他来说是什么,该怎么回答她呢?
打了“女朋友”。。想了一下,别人都没有说过做你女友。。
把“女”删除,发出去。
心想不知道她会怎么回复?会不会不满意这个答案。。
咿。。怎么那么久都没有回复呢?是生气吗?还是没有收到信息?
如果没有收到的话,再发一次,写“女朋友”好吗?
想到这里,她回复了。
好朋友?兄弟?原来一直都是这样,是自己想太多了。。
该怎么回复呢?说他忙好了,虽然是最烂的理由。
她以为自己打扰他了,傻瓜,他心想,真的恨不得她每一分每一秒都打扰我。
很快的回复,“没有,别担心!^^”
叹了口气,自己总是提不起勇气和她说其实很喜欢她。
和她说有喜欢的女生,然后努力的对她好,希望她能发现。
可是她似乎没看到。
如果真的和她表白,她应该会把表白当成笑话吧?或者会吓跑了?
为了可以继续留在她身边,把感觉搁在一边
怎么还没有回复?真的没有打扰啦!
唉,她又叫他和那女生表白,为什么那么想表白?
鼓起一点点地勇气写了“我不表白是因为你,因为那女生是你。”
结果发出去的是。。“我不表白是因为你。。。”
还是不要吓到她,保持现状也没有什么不好。
结果呢被她骂了,“好烂的理由哦!明明就是自己没勇气!”
的确,他没有勇气。。


“好咯。。去睡觉了。”
“嗯,晚安!”
“晚安”


----------------------The End-----------------------------

当爱擦肩而过。。
剩下的只有犹豫及遗憾。。
只要推开那扇门,风景就自然不同。。

~Lots Of Love~

It's my wrong..

Just had my very first paper for this semester today..
I did not have enough time to finish answering all the questions..
And for a part.. I just do not know what was i writing..
It's crap.. Real CRAP!!!

I felt really disappointed with myself..
It just a simple test (well, compared to those REAL test of life..)..
And I just couldn't do well as what I've expected..
How am I suppose to be what I want to be with a piece of sh*t like this?


And I felt so bad towards my Dad...
He's been doing so much for me..
Quietly.. Without any complaints.. Without giving up..
Just quietly supporting me, even if he doesn't have a strong financial ability..
And I just....
Quietly.. Did something that cannot make Him proud..
I know that He has a high expectation on me.. But I just failed..


Just now when I opened FB...
I saw my lecturer said that she is disappointed..
I just forgot.. "The lecturers want us to pass, want us to get good results"
I know that she saw what I did on my paper..
And I just felt so......
Sorry.....
She is a good lecturer for me, she's been working hard to help us..
And again.. I just failed..


It's over..
It's the past and I just don't have the ability to change it (I must be a 4-flat student if i have the ability.. XD)..
What I can do now is to pray hard that I'll get a not-too-bad result..
Most importantly, work for the next subject on tomorrow-- EMC!!!!
Wish those who have the same feeling as me.. Do not give up..
Let us Jia You together for tomorrow's and coming up papers.. ^^
Have faith, everything's gonna be alright!


~Lots Of Love~

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Silent Hurt...

This is a trailer of a movie called Silent Hurt a.k.a. my very first production..
It's done by my group members and me for our PR Writing assignment..
Yea.. So there's no such thing as screening in cinema at all..
It is made specially for academic purposes..
We had lots of fun producing this movie for our mock press conference..


Silent Hurt- A story about a rape victim counselor, Christine who herself was a rape victim. She used to be a normal university student until the day she was raped. Her life changed and everything seemed so hopeless for her.

Directed by Kuanie Ng

Starring 
Auyong Huimin, 
Ian Lim, 
JaMie Lim, 
Christopher Chong Khan, 
Brandon Liang Chi Wai, 
Wan Jinn Seong

Special thanks for the crew members
Chloe Mak,
Carmen Ng, 
Shu Yi Yun, 
Yukiri Hayashi, 
Peggy Hor, 
Kweh Shin Yee

Please watch and give comments...
p/s: we are not professional.. just having fun.. ^^

Long time no see.. Again...

I kinda like totally forgot about this baby until my friends said..
"Hey.. You havn't update your blog since quite a long time ago huh??"
Well...... I am BUSY...
But guess what?? I am back~~
Erm.. At least for this moment..
Lol... XD

I'll be having my exam starting tomorrow..
Feeling so stressed now..
But what can I do??
It's compulsory since I've chosen to be a university student..
Just continue to study..
Keep It Up..
加油。。
がんばって!!

~Lots of Love~

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Random..

I know that i've not been here for quite sometime..
I bet Nuffnang have hung my account??
Haha..
Recently my schedule is really really headache..
Like now..
I am actually preparing for tonight's show..
UTAR Model Search..
Don't laugh at me..
I know I don't have the qualifications to be a model okay??
I am performer for the night..
Performing Chinese Orchestra...
As a "K-lefeh" also..
Just wish everything run well..
Everything run smooth..
Everybody try your best!!


~Lots Of Love~

Monday, February 22, 2010

矛盾。自弃。压力。

我好象从来没试过这样。。
因为我算是个乐天派的。。呵呵。。
在最应该放轻松的新年里,我却觉得压力。。
好象要喘不过气。。
第一应该是新年也要准备功课的关系吧。。
第二。。。我也不懂为什么。。
好奇怪的我,自己也觉得好陌生。。
该不会是有精神病吧??XD

最近对周围的事物越来越敏感。。
发现自己好象没有想像中的好了。。
原来自己觉得是优点的对其他人来说并没什么大不了。。
我好想自己也像他们一样很特别。。
我自恋变到自弃了。。

这自弃和压力。。
我觉得过一阵子就会没事了。。
我有自信我可以overcome it。。

最后一个矛盾。。
这个可就令我头痛了。。
原来梦想与现实都是那么残酷的。。
好希望“实现”梦想就只是把“现实”两个字倒转排列那么简单。。
而且有梦想却不敢和最亲近的人分享才更悲哀。。
因为担心会给他们加负担。。
因为害怕他们觉得我这个老大不成熟。。
因为非常清楚家里没这个能力。。
可是却又很想和他们分享,期待他们支持我的那天。。
自己有没有实现梦想的条件也不清楚。。
却也知道如果我不尝试我永远不知道。。
心和脑的战争。。
我不想到最后它们会两败俱伤。。T.T

你会以为我想当歌手吧?
我的确蛮喜欢唱歌,自认还不算是五音不全。。
如果有机会的话。。。。。。。。。。。。呵呵。。
可是对我来说我的梦比当歌手更遥远,更“无知”。。
怎么办?我不知道该怎么做了。。


~Lots Of Love~

Sunday, February 14, 2010

This is My LOVE for YOU~~

LOVE is written as LOVE in English, pronounced as "luf"..
 

Love is written as in Chinese, pronounced as "ai"..
 

Love is written as CINTA in Malay, pronounced as "cin ta"..
 

Love is written as 愛/あい in Japanese, pronouced as "a i"..
 

Love is written as 사랑 in Korean, pronounced as "sa rang"..
 

Love is not written nor pronounced in "Kuanie's"..
Just see LOVE, feel LOVE and love LOVE..
 

This is my LOVE for you~
Happy Valentine's Day~~ Enjoy the remaining time of the day..


~Lots Of Love~
 
 

Friday, February 12, 2010

Balik Kampung~~~ Ooo~~ Balik Ipoh!!

I've finally finish packing up my stuff..
It's CNY= Chinese New Year!!
I am now waiting for my dad to fetch me..
Cant wait to receive angpau..
Wear pretty clothes..
Have a great time with my grandma..
And of course the other beloved family members..
Wait for me.. I'm coming home!!
Happy Chinese New Year!!
 









~Lots Of Love~

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Making It Interesting.. Kampar-Ipoh

As a student of UTAR Kampar and also an IpohMali..
I go back hometown almost every week..
The same journey the same road the same vibration of the Kinta bus..
The same duration of around 1 hour to reach Ipoh..
I have been studying here for almost two years..
The journey of going back hometown can only be described as-- boring..


But..
This smart-headed girl here decided to make it interesting for you guys..
Have a look on what I did today..
Firstly, I MUST take Kinta bus that follows the old road and not the highway..


At the Kampar New Town bus stop...
 
Listening to MP3 from my old Nokia 2130.. 
Bought myself a honey green tea and Cadbury Cruchie..
Who knows how long am i gonna wait there..

 
the shops on my left hand side and Grand Kampar Hotel in front of me..
With beautiful blue sky and white cloud.. Love it..

 
then i found out that it was bright blue sky on my left and dark clouds on my right..
big contrast.. and yea.. that's Kampar..

 
Anchor's truck passed by me with striking red.. Feeling the mood of CNY now..
I got on the bus~~~
 
  
it will only cost you rm4.60 from kampar to ipoh..
i have a habit of adding up the numbers on the tickets..
if you get a 21 in total, today is your lucky day..
remember to keep the tickets safe because the uncle will need to check it..
i was eating the Crunchie thingy.. and the uncle asked me "you are not scared of getting fat huh?"
am i really fat now??

What's outside?? (since the bus is driving kinda fast, i couldn't really take nice photographs.. please forgive the bad quality..)
 
passed by gua tempurung.. i had such a nice experience there.. ^^

 
kampung houses.. dunno why i just like it..

 
i discovered a church, a mosque, a chinese temple and an indian temple along the way..
i have never realise this even though i had been traveling on this road for almost 2 years..
things will only be found when you find them..

 
small sweet town-- gopeng..

 
  
here comes my favorite "portion" of the journey..
forgive me for the bad photography skills..
please notice the old-fashion and small-sized shops along the roadside..
this is Kampung Kebayang..
all the buildings there had actually removed for development except for this 2 rows of shops..
some of it has collapsed and it looks really fragile..
yet.. you can still find barber shop on business there.. 


Nearer and nearer to home sweet home..
 
one of the trademark of Simpang Pulai..
when you reach here..
you know that Ipoh is not far away..


There are a lot things in this world..
Things that are familiar to you..
Things that are routine to you..
You may find it boring very easily..
But things are dead and humans are alive..
You will always have the ability to change boredom to excitement..
Maybe you can tell me about your own interesting trip next time??


~Lots Of Love~

What a university life..

I've been soooo busy recently..
Busy with my studies..
My assignments..
My module for PHP a.k.a Peer Helping Program..
My practices for Chinese Orchestra..
My shopping for CNY... =P
Last but not least, my tutor that brought more troubles for me..
This is the first time I have my schedule so packed..
Feeling like I didn't even have time to take a nice deep breath..
And that's why..
My bloggie has been abandoned for almost 1 week..
Kesian betul ni..
Sayang balik lah~~ ^@^


~Lots Of Love~

Sunday, January 31, 2010

D.I.Y Hair Coloring

Recently my friend, Jing Yi wrote a blog about DIY Hair Coloring..
It's in Chinese but it's interesting!!
I commented at her blog that I wanna try it one day..
Then..
I found out that actually my housemate-- Siew Wuen knows how to do it!!
She did it to Wendy Gal just now..
It's simple and convenient..
Check this out!!
Just 5 simple steps..


Starring: Siew Wuen as Hair Stylist
                 Wendy Gal as Model

Step 1: Prepare all these things..
 











the set that wendy got is from Cherry Red Amway.. Containing:
  • the dye
  • activator
  • shampoo and conditioner..
Prepare also:
  • comb and brush
  • hair clips

Step 2: Get a container and mix the activator with the dye..


Step 3: Use brush and comb to apply the dye on hair evenly.
Remember to do it layer by layer with the help of hair clips..
This can ensure that your dye is applied evenly..
Or else...
You will regret it.. XD










Special photos.. Wendy is so gonna kill me..
 "adui~~ why so long one.. sleepy lah.."*yawn*
 
"let's play something fun.." *squeeze squeeze*


Step 4: Wait for 30 minutes..
 

Step 5: Wash with the shampoo and conditioner, rinse off, blow it dry and you are done!!
pretty~~ ^^
 Reminder: 
Wear Gloves unless you want your hands to have same color with your hair.


Special thanks for Siew Wuen and Wendy gal.. Love ya lots..

~Lots Of Love~

Saturday, January 30, 2010

An "Oreo-tic" day~~

I have no idea what's wrong with me today..
I just know that I had just finished whole pack of Oreo Double Delight..
I wanted to stop, I TRIED to stop..
I took one..
Put the pack back into the container..
Finished the one i took..
And automatically took another one from the container..
And another one........
Until...

 
the very last one..
 
 
cant stop eating it even i was taking photos.. so... yup, i bitten it..
oreo-tic Kuanie~~

Slimming plan spoilt by Oreo~~ T.T
Oreo is just way too tasty to be resisted.. 

~Lots Of Love~

Kuanie is on Plurk

Just invited by my friend-- Shu Yi to join Plurk..
Actually this is the 1st time i heard of Plurk.. (am i outdated? =X )
I signed up coz it's simple and fast.. 
No need to fill up too much details..
But I do not have much friends there..
So I'm not sure if i will be active there..
Hahax...

I've put the widget in my sidebar..
You guys can check it out there..
Or if you are on Plurk too..
Check out my profile and add me yea..

~Lots Of Love~