矛盾。自弃。压力。

我好象从来没试过这样。。
因为我算是个乐天派的。。呵呵。。
在最应该放轻松的新年里，我却觉得压力。。
好象要喘不过气。。
第一应该是新年也要准备功课的关系吧。。
第二。。。我也不懂为什么。。
好奇怪的我，自己也觉得好陌生。。
该不会是有精神病吧？？XD

最近对周围的事物越来越敏感。。
发现自己好象没有想像中的好了。。
原来自己觉得是优点的对其他人来说并没什么大不了。。
我好想自己也像他们一样很特别。。
我自恋变到自弃了。。

这自弃和压力。。
我觉得过一阵子就会没事了。。
我有自信我可以overcome it。。

最后一个矛盾。。
这个可就令我头痛了。。
原来梦想与现实都是那么残酷的。。
好希望“实现”梦想就只是把“现实”两个字倒转排列那么简单。。
而且有梦想却不敢和最亲近的人分享才更悲哀。。
因为担心会给他们加负担。。
因为害怕他们觉得我这个老大不成熟。。
因为非常清楚家里没这个能力。。
可是却又很想和他们分享，期待他们支持我的那天。。
自己有没有实现梦想的条件也不清楚。。
却也知道如果我不尝试我永远不知道。。

心和脑的战争。。

我不想到最后它们会两败俱伤。。T.T

你会以为我想当歌手吧？
我的确蛮喜欢唱歌，自认还不算是五音不全。。
如果有机会的话。。。。。。。。。。。。呵呵。。
可是对我来说我的梦比当歌手更遥远，更“无知”。。
怎么办？我不知道该怎么做了。。


~Lots Of Love~

This is My LOVE for YOU~~

LOVE is written as LOVE in English, pronounced as "luf"..

 

Love is written as 爱 in Chinese, pronounced as "ai"..

 

Love is written as CINTA in Malay, pronounced as "cin ta"..

 

Love is written as 愛/あい in Japanese, pronouced as "a i"..

 

Love is written as 사랑 in Korean, pronounced as "sa rang"..

 

Love is not written nor pronounced in "Kuanie's"..

Just see LOVE, feel LOVE and love LOVE..

 

This is my LOVE for you~

Happy Valentine's Day~~ Enjoy the remaining time of the day..

~Lots Of Love~

 

 

Balik Kampung~~~ Ooo~~ Balik Ipoh!!

I've finally finish packing up my stuff..

It's CNY= Chinese New Year!!

I am now waiting for my dad to fetch me..

Cant wait to receive angpau..

Wear pretty clothes..

Have a great time with my grandma..

And of course the other beloved family members..

Wait for me.. I'm coming home!!

Happy Chinese New Year!!

 

~Lots Of Love~

Making It Interesting.. Kampar-Ipoh

As a student of UTAR Kampar and also an IpohMali..
I go back hometown almost every week..
The same journey the same road the same vibration of the Kinta bus..
The same duration of around 1 hour to reach Ipoh..
I have been studying here for almost two years..
The journey of going back hometown can only be described as-- boring..


But..
This smart-headed girl here decided to make it interesting for you guys..
Have a look on what I did today..
Firstly, I MUST take Kinta bus that follows the old road and not the highway..


At the Kampar New Town bus stop...

 

Listening to MP3 from my old Nokia 2130.. 

Bought myself a honey green tea and Cadbury Cruchie..

Who knows how long am i gonna wait there..

 

the shops on my left hand side and Grand Kampar Hotel in front of me..

With beautiful blue sky and white cloud.. Love it..

 

then i found out that it was bright blue sky on my left and dark clouds on my right..

big contrast.. and yea.. that's Kampar..

 

Anchor's truck passed by me with striking red.. Feeling the mood of CNY now..

I got on the bus~~~

 

  

it will only cost you rm4.60 from kampar to ipoh..

i have a habit of adding up the numbers on the tickets..

if you get a 21 in total, today is your lucky day..

remember to keep the tickets safe because the uncle will need to check it..

i was eating the Crunchie thingy.. and the uncle asked me "you are not scared of getting fat huh?"

am i really fat now??

What's outside?? (since the bus is driving kinda fast, i couldn't really take nice photographs.. please forgive the bad quality..)

 

passed by gua tempurung.. i had such a nice experience there.. ^^

 

kampung houses.. dunno why i just like it..

 

i discovered a church, a mosque, a chinese temple and an indian temple along the way..

i have never realise this even though i had been traveling on this road for almost 2 years..

things will only be found when you find them..

 

small sweet town-- gopeng..

 

  

here comes my favorite "portion" of the journey..

forgive me for the bad photography skills..

please notice the old-fashion and small-sized shops along the roadside..

this is Kampung Kebayang..

all the buildings there had actually removed for development except for this 2 rows of shops..

some of it has collapsed and it looks really fragile..

yet.. you can still find barber shop on business there.. 

Nearer and nearer to home sweet home..

 

one of the trademark of Simpang Pulai..

when you reach here..

you know that Ipoh is not far away..

There are a lot things in this world..
Things that are familiar to you..
Things that are routine to you..
You may find it boring very easily..
But things are dead and humans are alive..
You will always have the ability to change boredom to excitement..
Maybe you can tell me about your own interesting trip next time??


~Lots Of Love~

What a university life..

I've been soooo busy recently..
Busy with my studies..
My assignments..
My module for PHP a.k.a Peer Helping Program..
My practices for Chinese Orchestra..
My shopping for CNY... =P
Last but not least, my tutor that brought more troubles for me..
This is the first time I have my schedule so packed..
Feeling like I didn't even have time to take a nice deep breath..
And that's why..
My bloggie has been abandoned for almost 1 week..
Kesian betul ni..
Sayang balik lah~~ ^@^


~Lots Of Love~