Messy Day

Okay, I just did something "very nice" to my crisis management paper today~
I couldn't finish it in time and I bet the lecturer would love me because I exchanged the precious 40 marks with "crab" (crapzzz la) for him to enjoy..
After the exam, it seems like everybody agree that the time should be 2.5 hours instead of only 2 hours..
But it's over, the only thing I can do is to pray that the "crab" tastes great..
Now I should focus on the paper tomorrow-- Multimedia Tools for Advertising..
This subject is making my head explode and some more I am having it TOMORROW!!!
Luckily it's in afternoon, hahaha...


I didn't get to sleep last night..
I was tired but I just couldn't fall asleep..
I turned on the bed for one hour and I gave up..
So, I am extremely tired after my exam.. (you know how that feels like releasing a stretched rubber band)
I went back apartment (wendy is still sleeping) and slept..
Then, I woke up by a phone call..
When I tried to sleep again after the call, I thought of the dream I had before I was woke by the ringtone..
Oh my! It's so ridiculous and funny.. But I find it logic in the dream, why? XD
I laughed alone in my room like a mad person and the next thing I know is-- I am too excited to fall asleep..
I am actually tired and sleepy but I just couldn't get myself back on dreamland..
That's why I am updating my blog here.. =="

Tomorrow shall be a better day~ <3
Jia you study!!




~Lots Of Love~

最后一部“电影”。。

忙碌了那么久，身体终于抗议了。。
好像很久没有发烧感冒的感觉了。。
可是现在不是生病的时候啊！！再过两天就演奏会了，还有一份超级难做（对我来说）的assignment星期一早上要交。。再加上CWW。。
我可真的没时间生病。。T。T

他们说生病的人不止身体，心灵上也是脆弱的。。
那如果在这时候再被人插一刀呢？
会是怎么样？

这已经不是第一次了。。
当我的技术不被肯定时，我可以接受，因为我也知道本身并不是什么值得重视的角色。。
一直以来都这样觉得，出现的原因只因为填补空缺的位置，永远都只是“临时演员”。。
这一切，我都可以接受。。
可是当我的努力不被肯定时，我真的不能接受。。
也许某些人觉得我不够努力，可是我的确有努力过。。
当我听到那句话时，我的感觉就像把一百个一天存一枚的一角钱倒进海里。。
虽然并不值钱，但也是努力了一百天的成果。。
我不能说什么，这个就是现实。。

亲爱的“导演”，
如果你是不需要我的话，为什么不要在开始就跟我说呢？
“临时演员”，也可以是抱着希望和期待的人。。
自从认识你以来，我的希望和期待，已经被抹杀不懂多少次了。。
在你眼里，我真的是那么没有价值吗？
当然，你有很多“专业演员”，甚至“临时演员”，在你眼里我的存在是多余的。。
那我岂不是笨死了？早知道我在一开始就该和你说我本来就想放弃。。
那样就不会努力坚持到现在得到你那么“体贴”的对待了。。

这会是我最后一次。。
最后一次，被你赶也不肯走的在你的“电影”里出现。。
哪怕我会被你讨厌，被别人说厚脸皮。。
已经坚持到现在，你叫我放弃我真的不甘愿。。
那一百个一角钱，不能让你倒进海里。。
就这最后一次，我和你的“电影”。。
不会再有下一部。。
我和你的友情。。我想你做决定。。

虽然会痛，还是要谢谢你。。


~Lots Of Love~

Pain pain!

I'm hungry but I didn't eat anything after forcing a piece of Gardenia chocolate bread into my tummy this morning before exam. (I think my aunt would scold me if she sees this)
When I thought of cooking myself a nice full plate of pasta, 
My BBF, Daniel asked me for dinner later. 
What time? 4.37pm.. Sigh.. Should I eat or not eat?
Fine I'll just wait since we are going to Gold Label.. ^^
I want something chocolaty to heal my pain.
Physical and mental pain..........
From what I've been through recently..
Exams, friends, self (which hurts the most)..
But guess what??
It's raining now. Will I be able to go and have chocolaty stuff? ♥

p.s.: having pengajian malaysia paper tomorrow, havn't even touch the notes, and my malay sucks. XD

It's my wrong..

Just had my very first paper for this semester today..
I did not have enough time to finish answering all the questions..
And for a part.. I just do not know what was i writing..
It's crap.. Real CRAP!!!

I felt really disappointed with myself..
It just a simple test (well, compared to those REAL test of life..)..
And I just couldn't do well as what I've expected..
How am I suppose to be what I want to be with a piece of sh*t like this?


And I felt so bad towards my Dad...
He's been doing so much for me..
Quietly.. Without any complaints.. Without giving up..
Just quietly supporting me, even if he doesn't have a strong financial ability..
And I just....
Quietly.. Did something that cannot make Him proud..
I know that He has a high expectation on me.. But I just failed..


Just now when I opened FB...
I saw my lecturer said that she is disappointed..
I just forgot.. "The lecturers want us to pass, want us to get good results"
I know that she saw what I did on my paper..
And I just felt so......
Sorry.....
She is a good lecturer for me, she's been working hard to help us..
And again.. I just failed..


It's over..
It's the past and I just don't have the ability to change it (I must be a 4-flat student if i have the ability.. XD)..
What I can do now is to pray hard that I'll get a not-too-bad result..
Most importantly, work for the next subject on tomorrow-- EMC!!!!
Wish those who have the same feeling as me.. Do not give up..
Let us Jia You together for tomorrow's and coming up papers.. ^^
Have faith, everything's gonna be alright!


~Lots Of Love~

Silent Hurt...

This is a trailer of a movie called Silent Hurt a.k.a. my very first production..
It's done by my group members and me for our PR Writing assignment..
Yea.. So there's no such thing as screening in cinema at all..
It is made specially for academic purposes..
We had lots of fun producing this movie for our mock press conference..

Silent Hurt- A story about a rape victim counselor, Christine who herself was a rape victim. She used to be a normal university student until the day she was raped. Her life changed and everything seemed so hopeless for her.

Directed by Kuanie Ng

Starring 

Auyong Huimin, 

Ian Lim, 

JaMie Lim, 

Christopher Chong Khan, 

Brandon Liang Chi Wai, 

Wan Jinn Seong

Special thanks for the crew members
Chloe Mak,

Carmen Ng, 

Shu Yi Yun, 

Yukiri Hayashi, 

Peggy Hor, 

Kweh Shin Yee

Please watch and give comments...
p/s: we are not professional.. just having fun.. ^^

Long time no see.. Again...

I kinda like totally forgot about this baby until my friends said..
"Hey.. You havn't update your blog since quite a long time ago huh??"
Well...... I am BUSY...
But guess what?? I am back~~
Erm.. At least for this moment..
Lol... XD

I'll be having my exam starting tomorrow..
Feeling so stressed now..
But what can I do??
It's compulsory since I've chosen to be a university student..
Just continue to study..
Keep It Up..
加油。。
がんばって！！

~Lots of Love~

Random..

I know that i've not been here for quite sometime..
I bet Nuffnang have hung my account??
Haha..
Recently my schedule is really really headache..
Like now..
I am actually preparing for tonight's show..
UTAR Model Search..
Don't laugh at me..
I know I don't have the qualifications to be a model okay??
I am performer for the night..
Performing Chinese Orchestra...
As a "K-lefeh" also..
Just wish everything run well..
Everything run smooth..
Everybody try your best!!


~Lots Of Love~

Making It Interesting.. Kampar-Ipoh

As a student of UTAR Kampar and also an IpohMali..
I go back hometown almost every week..
The same journey the same road the same vibration of the Kinta bus..
The same duration of around 1 hour to reach Ipoh..
I have been studying here for almost two years..
The journey of going back hometown can only be described as-- boring..


But..
This smart-headed girl here decided to make it interesting for you guys..
Have a look on what I did today..
Firstly, I MUST take Kinta bus that follows the old road and not the highway..


At the Kampar New Town bus stop...

 

Listening to MP3 from my old Nokia 2130.. 

Bought myself a honey green tea and Cadbury Cruchie..

Who knows how long am i gonna wait there..

 

the shops on my left hand side and Grand Kampar Hotel in front of me..

With beautiful blue sky and white cloud.. Love it..

 

then i found out that it was bright blue sky on my left and dark clouds on my right..

big contrast.. and yea.. that's Kampar..

 

Anchor's truck passed by me with striking red.. Feeling the mood of CNY now..

I got on the bus~~~

 

  

it will only cost you rm4.60 from kampar to ipoh..

i have a habit of adding up the numbers on the tickets..

if you get a 21 in total, today is your lucky day..

remember to keep the tickets safe because the uncle will need to check it..

i was eating the Crunchie thingy.. and the uncle asked me "you are not scared of getting fat huh?"

am i really fat now??

What's outside?? (since the bus is driving kinda fast, i couldn't really take nice photographs.. please forgive the bad quality..)

 

passed by gua tempurung.. i had such a nice experience there.. ^^

 

kampung houses.. dunno why i just like it..

 

i discovered a church, a mosque, a chinese temple and an indian temple along the way..

i have never realise this even though i had been traveling on this road for almost 2 years..

things will only be found when you find them..

 

small sweet town-- gopeng..

 

  

here comes my favorite "portion" of the journey..

forgive me for the bad photography skills..

please notice the old-fashion and small-sized shops along the roadside..

this is Kampung Kebayang..

all the buildings there had actually removed for development except for this 2 rows of shops..

some of it has collapsed and it looks really fragile..

yet.. you can still find barber shop on business there.. 

Nearer and nearer to home sweet home..

 

one of the trademark of Simpang Pulai..

when you reach here..

you know that Ipoh is not far away..

There are a lot things in this world..
Things that are familiar to you..
Things that are routine to you..
You may find it boring very easily..
But things are dead and humans are alive..
You will always have the ability to change boredom to excitement..
Maybe you can tell me about your own interesting trip next time??


~Lots Of Love~

What a university life..

I've been soooo busy recently..
Busy with my studies..
My assignments..
My module for PHP a.k.a Peer Helping Program..
My practices for Chinese Orchestra..
My shopping for CNY... =P
Last but not least, my tutor that brought more troubles for me..
This is the first time I have my schedule so packed..
Feeling like I didn't even have time to take a nice deep breath..
And that's why..
My bloggie has been abandoned for almost 1 week..
Kesian betul ni..
Sayang balik lah~~ ^@^


~Lots Of Love~

UTARCOU Recruitment Drive

Dearest Kampar UTARians..
Have you ever heard of Chinese Orchestra?
No no no..
Don't mistaken it..
It's not an orchestra formed by only Chinese..
And yes.. It's about music..
EVERYONE can join it and it's REALLY FUN!!
Interested?
Wanna know more?

Chinese Orchestra Unit of UTAR will be having recruitment drive starting tomorrow..
From 26th to 28th January..
Come to our booth at Cafeteria, Block C..
We will be waiting for you!!

~Lots Of Love~