Messy Day

Okay, I just did something "very nice" to my crisis management paper today~
I couldn't finish it in time and I bet the lecturer would love me because I exchanged the precious 40 marks with "crab" (crapzzz la) for him to enjoy..
After the exam, it seems like everybody agree that the time should be 2.5 hours instead of only 2 hours..
But it's over, the only thing I can do is to pray that the "crab" tastes great..
Now I should focus on the paper tomorrow-- Multimedia Tools for Advertising..
This subject is making my head explode and some more I am having it TOMORROW!!!
Luckily it's in afternoon, hahaha...


I didn't get to sleep last night..
I was tired but I just couldn't fall asleep..
I turned on the bed for one hour and I gave up..
So, I am extremely tired after my exam.. (you know how that feels like releasing a stretched rubber band)
I went back apartment (wendy is still sleeping) and slept..
Then, I woke up by a phone call..
When I tried to sleep again after the call, I thought of the dream I had before I was woke by the ringtone..
Oh my! It's so ridiculous and funny.. But I find it logic in the dream, why? XD
I laughed alone in my room like a mad person and the next thing I know is-- I am too excited to fall asleep..
I am actually tired and sleepy but I just couldn't get myself back on dreamland..
That's why I am updating my blog here.. =="

Tomorrow shall be a better day~ <3
Jia you study!!




~Lots Of Love~

This is not omelette, it's "kok kok egg"..

My aunt went out for some business, so I have no lunch today..
Grandma suggested to fry the left-over rice but I don't feel like eating fried rice..
Then she said, "I am okay with anything, just warm the rice and eat with an egg will be okay for me too.."
So I said "Mama, let's eat like this then, I want 'kok kok dan'.." ^^

I remembered when I was young, I loved to eat my grandma's "kok kok egg" a.k.a. omelette..

Why is it called "kok kok egg"?

It is actually from the sound of spoon hitting the plastic bowl when we beat the egg..

We always use plastic bowl last time, maybe it is safer for kids like me who tried to help out in the kitchen.. XD

Since then, the special name for my home-cooked omelette-- "Kok Kok Dan" remains until now..

My younger sisters were also "taught" to call the omelette as "kok kok dan".. (good teacher right?)

It was the most delicious food in the world for me that time..

I even "introduced" this world's best food to my tutor last time.. (i think my grandma was kinda embarrassed that time.. lolz..)

It is probably a normal omelette for most of the people, but it is just so different for me..

I believe that I will never ever get the same taste from any places of this world..

It's the taste of my grandma's love and care..

It has never changed until today..

 

I do not know about you, but I believe that there must be some food, or something that will give you the same feeling like how this "kok kok dan" gave me..

It might be 'nothing' for others, but it is surely 'something' for you..

That's the taste..幸福的滋味~<3

dedicated to my grandma

~Lots Of Love~

发恶梦

我又开始发恶梦了。。
虽然醒后想不起到底梦过什么，只知道两次都被吓醒。。
两次都有眼泪的出现。。

考试要到了，我发恶梦一点也不出奇。。
每次考试，当我要自己开始温习时，总是无形中给自己太多的压力。。
要做得很好，这样才不会丢脸，不会让家人失望，要记得自己身上背的责任。。
结果，到最后根本不敢开始温习，不停地逃避。。
然后再懊恼，讨厌自己为什么不能好好读书。。

是不是很笨？

昨晚睡不着，躺在床上想了好多，想到连恶梦都发了。。
现在唯一能做的就是不让自己懊恼吧，先开始读书，什么都不想。。
加油啊！只有你自己可以帮到自己了！！

~Lots Of Love~

2 months

 Update my blog after 2 months time, is it still considered an "update"? XD

This semester's assignments are way too heavy for me to have time blogging..

Yea, I know it's my time management problem..

By the way, I learned a lot.. From the people around me, from myself..

A lot of things happened during this 13 weeks, for example, I found out that I was not the only one that has the same perception towards something..

I am those who easily see, or maybe I should say "sense" intentions and behavior behind something..

But I will not tell anybody about it because I think that it is not necessary. Since the others think that  it is good, then why should I spoil their happiness?

Until the day when others get really annoyed with the things, until the day they started to complain about it with me, only I will tell them that actually I knew about it since long time ago.

I do not think that it is a good thing.

Because all these that I see are the negative sides, not the positive ones.

I should learn to appreciate the good things in life instead of looking at the bad sides and get upset with it and affect my life.

It's not worth it.

Love like how He loves me.

This is my new lesson.

~Lots Of Love~

Tae Yang (Big Bang) 1st Solo Album "Solar" Teaser-- I Need A Girl

It's just HAWT HAWT HAWT!!!!
*nose bleed*
The new album will be officially released tomorrow, 1st June 2010...
Looking forward for it..
By the way.. Please check this out.. (or u gonna regret it.. *winks* =P) 





~Lots Of Love~

生活，学习，爱。。

写这些，还是觉得中文比较贴近。。^^

最近的生活好像被牵着走，自己喜欢什么，想要什么都忘记了。
感觉像发了一场梦，梦醒后有那种睡不好的疲惫，还有不想面对现实的恐惧。
觉得自己好没用，好像什么都提不起劲，做不来，想逃离，想旅行。。

在这段时间学习了很多，看清了很多人和物，也看清了自己。
写张清单吧。。最近学习了的事情。。

1. 该放手的东西就不应该坚持，因为这样会把更有价值的东西放在一边。
2. 在你需要时对你好的人要好好珍惜，不管是真心还是背后有企图，至少他在那一刻是个“好人”。
3. 累了就休息。休息是为了更长远的路。
4. 发高烧时喝100plus真的会好！！^^
5. 很多事情，只有自己能帮到自己。
6. 不要随便让你的眼泪流下，尤其是在别人面前，没有人会可怜你。
7. 别以为你付出了很多就会得回很多，这个世界上的人只看见他们想看见的事情，想有回报都是自己奖励自己比较实际。
8. 长头发+矮矮+娃娃音+纯真可爱（不管是装还是真的）+看起来软弱的女生最受喜欢。以上条件我没有一项符合，所以自己喜欢自己就好。♥
9. 觉得被冷落时就想“有一天你们会后悔的”，然后再厚脸皮地参入大家。
10. 时常对自己说，如果那么小的挑战都不能应付，要怎么“有一天你们会后悔的”？
11. 我不是所谓的美女，但我也不是没有脸的怪物。
12. 这个世界很现实，如果你说你知道，再一次认识这个世界，你会觉得它越来越现实。
13. 一切过去，最想回家见奶奶。

好了，牢骚发完了。。
现在是要努力的时候，还有太多的事情需要做。。
加油加油加油！！

最后一部“电影”。。

忙碌了那么久，身体终于抗议了。。
好像很久没有发烧感冒的感觉了。。
可是现在不是生病的时候啊！！再过两天就演奏会了，还有一份超级难做（对我来说）的assignment星期一早上要交。。再加上CWW。。
我可真的没时间生病。。T。T

他们说生病的人不止身体，心灵上也是脆弱的。。
那如果在这时候再被人插一刀呢？
会是怎么样？

这已经不是第一次了。。
当我的技术不被肯定时，我可以接受，因为我也知道本身并不是什么值得重视的角色。。
一直以来都这样觉得，出现的原因只因为填补空缺的位置，永远都只是“临时演员”。。
这一切，我都可以接受。。
可是当我的努力不被肯定时，我真的不能接受。。
也许某些人觉得我不够努力，可是我的确有努力过。。
当我听到那句话时，我的感觉就像把一百个一天存一枚的一角钱倒进海里。。
虽然并不值钱，但也是努力了一百天的成果。。
我不能说什么，这个就是现实。。

亲爱的“导演”，
如果你是不需要我的话，为什么不要在开始就跟我说呢？
“临时演员”，也可以是抱着希望和期待的人。。
自从认识你以来，我的希望和期待，已经被抹杀不懂多少次了。。
在你眼里，我真的是那么没有价值吗？
当然，你有很多“专业演员”，甚至“临时演员”，在你眼里我的存在是多余的。。
那我岂不是笨死了？早知道我在一开始就该和你说我本来就想放弃。。
那样就不会努力坚持到现在得到你那么“体贴”的对待了。。

这会是我最后一次。。
最后一次，被你赶也不肯走的在你的“电影”里出现。。
哪怕我会被你讨厌，被别人说厚脸皮。。
已经坚持到现在，你叫我放弃我真的不甘愿。。
那一百个一角钱，不能让你倒进海里。。
就这最后一次，我和你的“电影”。。
不会再有下一部。。
我和你的友情。。我想你做决定。。

虽然会痛，还是要谢谢你。。


~Lots Of Love~